I’l be relaxed smiling. So long as I’m interacting with others. So long as I’m doing an activity that distracts me from myself. Sports, socializing, work, sex, gambling, smoking, drinking, fighting, working out, cooking, cleaning, packing, unpacking, rearranging furniture, shopping, driving, etc.
I try to remain present, in my current state but if I get stale (not doing anything) my mind/mood drifts.
I begin to get chaotic. I don’t want to but I can’t help it.
I don’t always exist in my present (time/what I’m doing/present) but also flow through an everlasting current of stimuli and thought/feeling.