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Let’s talk about drugs and alcohol

Wow, let’s take a moment to review the kind of craziness and non-sensities about our favorite addiction.

Lost time, money and memories to name a few. “How did we get here and who are you?” Are quick and common observations of such actions but there is the after. The way after when we finally stop participating in said activities.

What one does not hear about is that your mind goes completely blank and I mean blank like an empty space when you begin recovery. How one thinks, remembers and interprets information from that point on is very different than before.

Don’t confuse before with being anything productive. After all, we were intoxicated. Now that we are not, we find ourselves mindless. Just incase anyone is wondering, No we are not the happy go lucky smiley bunch. Obviously, before someone became an alcoholic/addict they were a##holes to begin with.

Now that we are recuperating from our debauchery we find that we don’t know how to do much else. All we talk about is not doing what we did before. That’s it.

There is an aside here and this is where I insert the word/term “structure”. This is essentially the architecture of ones habits over time. It sounds good but seriously, what am I structuring?

I wake up, go to the gym.”look for a job” and there is something to be said about that; and go to aa meetings all night. Also, I am unemployed and homeless. One would think that this would be a spring board for some coarse of action. But with little if any social skills and a mental disorder that is compounding with symptoms as we speak, where can I go and what could I do that would be more productive than typing on a computer to job listings that really are a computer automated response and searching for a place of residence that is above any price tag that I can meet.

I want to say time passed me by but the truth is I never had a handle on time to begin with. Everyone I have met is a paper cut out of some magazine that turned into a picture on a social media website. Where does this go?..



First Day of Work

ImageTomorrow will be the “X”nth time in my life that I will go through the first day at work experience. Meet the manager/supervisor and my fellow co-workers for the first time as well as what will be the first of many customers and clients. Am I nervous or excited? No.

No because on my first week I can already see that I have limited hours. This means I have to pick up available shifts so I can cover my 40hr-week full-time obligation. Yet, there is no availability of extra shifts for pick up which could indicate the we may be overstaffed.  

My outlook may not be gleeful but make no mistake, I am going in with the right attitude. My perspective is that everyday is a gift and every opportunity for a new or unfamiliar experience is a blessing in disguise. With this being said you can bet that I’m still looking for work. Why? Because being underemployed and on a limited income does not make paying bills any easier nor does it help my prospects of affording transportation and an apartment.

Job search

Well its been quite a few weeks that I have been looking for a decent place of employment. The network is short and I’ve been doing the internet searches. I can’t be the only one looking for work but I am thinking about who sees my resumes. I have focused on mid to small size companies so I am not sure if there is a dedicated hr person in house or if one has take the responsibility themselves. In any case the search continues.


Well this is a subject of regular thought. Why? Well it’s because you have to pay the bills while you make a living for yourself.

So how does one do that?

Aside from the numerous books and “guides” that discuss it everyone has to figure that out on their own. Does that work? Maybe and maybe not, so lets take a look at it from a different angle. What obligations does one have that allow or inhibit ones ability to fully enjoy their quality of life?
Once one has pointed out their obligations/restraints/inhibitions/etc. How can one readjust those confinements into an activity of regular enjoyment. This does not necessarily mean partying all the time but figuring out what can be done regularly or even periodically without burnout and with growth?