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Acting…maybe I am just crazy.

I have spent most/all of my life Color Bucketsacting. Differently and the same. I behave differently around different people and places. How do you want to see me?.. [I have acted for so long, that I don’t know how to act]

I don’t know. I have never ‘really’ seen my reflection.

The most common response I have received is the a##hole. A drunken childish fool that knows little about anything. Now that that has been revealed, in the past and understood, I can put him to rest, dead. Everybody knows him and nobody likes him, not even us.

So this is where we are.

We are a group of people. You think you know us, we think…perhaps. How do you want to look at me? That is just a ‘trick’ question. We were just asking. That’s all. Just asking. After all we only take our consideration seriously, see ‘worth inquiry’. Everyone else’s thoughts is like a color that splashes off another person, like the reflection off a surface. It is ok, we understand.

Like walking through a forrest of smoke and mirrors. Look at this…just saying. Don’t take us personally, we don’t.

Let’s take off the mask.

[Guess what?]

There is another mask. More like a color shifting to another color. You don’t need to figure us out, it’s not like that’s what we are doing. Do you really want to know what is inside our heads?.. We’ll tell you later.

Like a curtain lifting to another stage, or mirror, or…

How do we think of us?..

There’s a thought?

3think

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DISCIPLINE

Discipline: noun – training that corrects, molds, or perfects the mental facilities or moral character.

After a google search for the definition of discipline I have come to agree with the above description from Merriam-Webster.

I admire and am fascinated with the character trait of discipline. Discipline to perform a repeated act for regular intervals for a prolonged period of time. Homework, ballet, karate, nutrition, vegetarian, style-of-dress, illustrating.

Discipline is a character requirement and maybe not a pre-requisite but a co-requisite to structure. Structure of character to plan, organize, and execute ones initiatives.

As fun as it is to right the above, orate the very essence of its meaning, meeting an attractive person with those qualities. I will personally admit that it is a quality that I lack.

I lack the discipline to get out of bed when the alarm goes off the first time. Lack the discipline to exercise in the morning, every morning. Lack the discipline to prepare a healthy meal instead of a quick snack (see also: patience).

Why is discipline so difficult for one to attain. After-all, it is within our grasp (exclude: addict). Every evening I go to bed telling myself that I will rise as soon as the morning alarm goes off and every morning I hit snooze repeatedly until I roll off of bed an hour later. Every new year’s holiday we have millions of people declare that they will lose weight, quit smoking, improve upon a skill, strive for a goal not yet achieved from starting ones own business to quitting ones job and traveling the world.
It’s the effort that holds one back. Or rather lack of effort. In other words…comfort. The comfort of being miserable, stale, lazy, being the all knowing of the familiar.
Yet we are all honest about the dislike of our very reflection. And we stand tall and voice aloud to our friends and family that things are going to change…tomorrow.

(see also: procrastination)